The good news is that you appear to be overcoming your fear of spiders - taking pictures of webs and learning about their biology and the non-risks that they pose is great therapy.
I once had a phobia of wasps and if bothered by one would run through a crowded cafe in a straight line leaving upset tables and people covered in their lunches and beverages behind me. By learning more about the biology of wasps and by greater exposure to them over the years I have to say that I am now fully cured of this phobia and I am the person least likely to panic if a wasp or two flies around our picnic.
You too can get there - watch this spider forum regularly and learn more about the common spiders found in our homes and gardens.
ive actually had to go to the doctors about my anxiety, its never been this bad before but was already somewhat severe, he said exactly what you said.
when im at the stables seeing my horse, the cobwebs i see are so beautiful, hanging on gates and in my horses stable. some of the shapes are incredible, ive been told to try and look at spiders as an artist. creators of beauty.